Last Night (Diddy feat Keyshia)

Diddy:]
Last night,
I couldn't even get an answer.
Tried to call,
but my pride wouldn't let me dial.
And I'm sitting here,
with this blank expression.
And the way I feel,
I wanna curl up like a child.

I know you can hear me
I know you can feel me
I can't live without you
God please make me better
I wish I wasn't the way I am

[Keyshia:]
If I told you once, I told you twice,
you can see it in my eyes.
I'm all cried out,
with nothing to say.
You're everything I wanted to be.
If you could only see,
your heart belongs to me.
I love you so much, I'm yearning for your touch.
Come and set me free,
forever yours I'll be,
baby won't you come and take this pain awayyyyy.

[Diddy:]
Last night,
I couldn't even get an answer.
Tried to call,
but my pride wouldn't let me dial.
And I'm sitting here,
with this blank expression.
And the way I feel,
I wanna curl up like a child.

[Keyshia:]
I need you,
and you need me.
This is so plain to see,
and I will never let you go and,
I will always love you so.
I will...
If you could only see,
your heart belongs to me.
I love you so much, I'm yearning for your touch.
Come and set me free,
forever yours I'll be,
baby won't you come and take this pain awayyyyy.

[Diddy:]
Last night,
I couldn't even get an answer.
Tried to call,
but my pride wouldn't let me dial.
And I'm sitting here,
with this blank expression.
And the way I feel,
I wanna curl up like a child.

[Diddy:]
Tell me the words to say,
to make you come back,
and work me like that.
And if it matters I'll rather stay home,
with you I'm never alone.
Don't want to wait till you're gone,
let me be, just don't leave me.

[Diddy:]
Last night,
I couldn't even get an answer.
Tried to call,
but my pride wouldn't let me dial.
And I'm sitting here,
with this blank expression.
And the way I feel,
I wanna curl up like a child.

[Keyshia:]
I need you,
and you need me.
This is so plain to see,
and I will never let you go and,
I will always love you so.
I will...
If you could only see,
your heart belongs to me.
I love you so much, I'm yearning for your touch.
Come and set me free,
forever yours I'll be,
baby won't you come and take my pain awayyyyy.

[Diddy:]
Last night,
I couldn't even get an answer.
Tried to call,
but my pride wouldn't let me dial.
And I'm sitting here,
with this blank expression.
And the way I feel,
I wanna curl up like a child.

[Keyshia:]
I'm so alone I'm soooo lonelyyyyy,

Why don't you pick the phone,
and dial up my number,
and call me a baby,
I'm waiting on you.

Why don't you pick the phone,
and dial up my number,
just call me a baby,
I'm waiting on you.

I'm sorry, blame it on me.

As life goes on I'm starting to learn more and more about responsibility
And I realize that everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out to apologize for things that
I've done things that haven't occurred yet
and things that they don't want to take responsibility for

I'm sorry for the times that I left you home
I was on the road and you were alone
I'm sorry for the times that I had to go
I'm sorry for the fact that I did not know

That you were sitting home just wishing we
Could go back to when it was just you and me
I'm sorry for the times I would neglect
I'm sorry for the times I disrespect

I'm sorry for the wrong things that I've done
I'm sorry I'm not always there for my sons
I'm sorry for the fact that I'm not aware
That you can't sleep at night when I am not there

Because I'm in the streets like everyday
I'm sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you are the best thing in my world
And how I'm so proud to call you my girl

I understand that there's some problems
And I'm not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show

If I can't apologize for being wrong
Then it's just a shame on me
I'll be the reason for your pain
And you can put the blame on me

You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

I'm sorry for the things that he put you through
And all the times you didn't know what to do
I'm sorry that you had to go and sell those bags
Just trying to stay busy until you heard from dad

When you would rather be home with all your kids
As one big family with love and bliss
And even though pops treated us like kings
He got a second wife and you didn't agree

He got up and left you there all alone
I'm sorry that you had to do it on your own
I'm sorry that I went and added to your grief
I'm sorry that your son was once a thief

I'm sorry that I grew up way to fast
I wish I would of listened and not be so bad
I'm sorry that your life turned out this way
I'm sorry that the feds came and took me away

I understand that there's some problems
And I'm not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show

If I can't apologize for being wrong
Then it's just a shame on me
I’ll be the reason for your pain
And you can put the blame on me

You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

I'm sorry that it took so long to see
But they were dead wrong trying to put it on me
I'm sorry that it took so long to speak
But I was on tour with Gwen Stefani

I'm sorry for the hand that she was dealt
And for the embarrassment that she felt
She's just a little young girl trying to have fun
But daddy should of never let her out that young

I'm sorry for Club Zen getting shut down
I hope they manage better next time around
How was I to know she was underage
In a 21 and older club they say

Why doesn't anybody want to take blame
Verizon backed out disgracing my name
I'm just a singer trying to entertain
Because I love my fans I'll take that blame

Even though the blame's on you
Even though the blame's on you
Even though the blame's on you
I'll take that blame from you

And you can put that blame on me
And you can put that blame on me
You can put that blame on me
You can put that blame on me

And you can put that blame on me

And you can put that blame on me

Make it Markov!

A lot of things are happening lately.

We are moving out to Maybury Gardens (Willesden) from Neasden (Only one station away but the 'Zone 2' label makes a lot of differences). I have to say it's such a wonderful crib I don't mind paying for the small room. Well actually not that really small lah. Kudos Smq and Sam.

I'm on the verge of leaving PNB after being rejected of another year of deferment (I will appeal through a respected figure!). The lads are great but they themselves urge me to seek other avenues.

Arsenal proving me wrong with their recent performances.

Changing the way I'm thinking about Malaysia and its consititution.

Leaving behind family and friends after a 2-month 'break'. Went to Genting, Port Dickson, Sunway Lagoon and even BTN Ulu Sepri resulting the 'rindu padamu' effect. Earliest I will be back to homecountry in August or September 2008.

Being granted a convertible loan as for the first time ever being sponsored overseas.

Happy to hear about the new budget. Effective September 2007, the Government will increase the Cost of Living Allowances (COLA) for students in the United States, United Kingdom and Canada by up to 97%, almost double the current rate. (Budget 2008. However I'm not sure if my case included.)

Pursuing MSc Actuarial Management after a year course of MSc Actuarial Science (I now only need to hand in the Project after passing all the papers but still writing it up is quite a trouble)

Didnt get to resit for exemption purposes for subject CT8 but still raring to do it externally via the Institute. Sacrificed 'holidays' in Malaysia, ended up signing up agreements and do other important stuffs.

Transitting from Pro Evo 5 to Pro Evo 6 (wanna fight come arr!). Beaten Top Player Mode but Kudin suggested I fight with real people.

Vow to work my ass off to obtain as many exemptions for ST and CA subjects and land a job in the UK to pay back 'someone'. I have to wait for the letter of demand after 31st October to know the exact figure.

"Ya Allah, berikanlah hambamu ini kekuatan dan keredhaan hidup di dunia dan akhirat."

Amin.

Baru-baru ini..

Tidak habis-habis tentang program susu sekolah. Kanak-kanak pula menjadi mangsa. Tujuan sebenar program ini adalah tujuan murni. Mahu memberi susu-susu 'segar' kepada murid-murid sekolah yang tidak berkemampuan. Namun, seperti biasa, pihak yang bertanggungjawab menyalurkan bantuan ini berkemungkinan tidak kompeten. Mengapa tidak kompeten? Hati skeptik saya berdetik. Saya merasakan mereka ini rakus mengaut keuntungan dan akhirnya lupa tentang tujuan sebenar program ini.

Atau mungkin tender dimenangi dengan rasuah? Mungkin juga.

Ibu bapa menjadi resah dengan telatah konsortium pembekal susu sekolah ini. Kini, tidak habis-habis menuding jari kepada satu sama lain. Manufacturer kah yang bersalah? Pengangkut kah yang bersalah? Penyimpan bekalan susukah yang bersalah?

Senang cerita, salahkanlah bakteria-bakteria dalam susu itu! Mereka yang bersalah sebab mereka tidak sepatutnya wujud di dunia ini!

Saya yakin proses pengeluaran susu seperti ini bukanlah suatu perkara mudah. Janganlah nanti nyawa anak-anak kecil dipergadaikan kononnya atas nama tujuan murni walhal syarikat susu meraih keuntungan yang melampau. Kita kembali kepada niat asal program ini.

Negarakuku.

Dalam isu yang lain, ia berkenaan seorang rakyat Malaysia yang mempunyai nama pena 'Namawee'. Bukan, dia bukanlah Mawi wannabe tapi giat merakam lagu-lagu sendiri. Sedikit keterangan mengenai Namawee, dia kini sedang menuntut pelajaran di Taiwan dan berasal dari Muar. Seorang pelajar sekolah Cina private, dia telah menghina negara Malaysia, lagu negara, agama Islam dan bangsa melayu. Perkara ini sangat-sangat saya memandang serius.

Bukan kerana saya ini Melayu, tetapi kerana saya ini rakyat Malaysia.

Risau resahlah hati saya melihat keadaan ini sekaligus memberi gambaran tentang hubungan anak-anak muda pelbagai bangsa di Malaysia. Begitu mudah jika saya hendak menuding jari kepada kementerian pelajaran tetapi apa yang saya amati dari blog beliau, ia menunjukkan betapa CETEK, BIADAP dan TIDAK BERMORAL penulis blog yang bernama Namawee ini. Beliau didakwa dalam akta menghasut sehingga membuatkan kekacauan.

Mengapa saya berkata begitu? Teringat saya tentang telatah anak-anak muda berketurunan Tiong Hwa menghina seorang wanita yang memakai tudung di hadapan saya di dalam gerabak LRT. Saya sedih kerana anak-anak muda sekarang tidak dapat berkawan dengan rakan-rakan yang pelbagai bangsa sekaligus mencetus perasaan perkauman antara mereka.

Sekolah satu aliran, bila lagi?

Banyak jugak 'merdeka wish' yang saya hendak nyatakan tetapi biarlah salah satunya Namawee dimasukkan ke penjara kerana menghina negara sendiri dan juga kaum lain. Saya harap di waktu ini, bolehlah ISA digunakan kerana jika hendak menunggu prosedur, sampai tahun depan pun tidak akan siap waran tangkap melihatkan yang dia melakukan jenayah itu di Taiwan.

Relevan kah ISA?

Semalam sempat saya berceloteh bersama dua orang rakan tentang Raja Petra dan ISA. Sehingga kini, saya yakin ISA (Internal Security Act) masih lagi relevan tetapi tidak seharusnya disalah gunakan oleh parti-parti bagi tujuan politik. Namun, ISA sangatlah penting bagi mengelakkan kekacauan di dalam negara. Sebagai informasi, menurut rakan saya yang merupakan seorang konsultan undang-undang menceritakan betapa pihak USA dan UK mencemuh kita tentang adanya ISA sebelum Sept 11, 2001. Kini, mereka tidak berputus-putus mahukan pandangan kita tentang ISA dan mereka juga mengemulasinya.

Tidak perlu kita pandang tinggi kepada mereka. Kita bukan lagi negara yang mentah. Jika kita begitu mengharapkan undang-undang yang dibuat dunia ini, penuh prosedur dan penuh kertas kerja. Terlalu lambat! Sempat juga saya memberi contoh kisah Ayah Pin, sepatutnya dia diberkas mengikut akta ISA. Namun oleh kerana waran tangkap yang dijadikan sandaran, Ayah Pin masih bebas sehingga kini.

Mahukah anda perkara ini berulang? Pokoknya sekarang, perbaiki ISA, bukanlah 'ABOLISH'-nya sahaja sepertimana yang dicadangkan rakan saya itu.

No law is perfect. Lihatlah apa yang berlaku kepada kes bunuh yang ditutup kerana laporan tidak lengkap. Ini jelas bahawa undang-undang dunia masih banyak mempunyai kelemahan. Atas kerana laporan tidak lengkap, dua orang pembunuh bebas? Ini mungkin persoalan yang timbul di kalangan rakyat.

Perbaiki. Bukan cakap-cakap saja.

p/s: Raja Petra adalah seorang yang berani. Tetapi beliau lupa cara berdakwah yang ditunjukkan Nabi. Cara yang berhemah! Janganlah jadikan cemuhan sebagai aset tetapi cara yang penuh tertib dan berhemah. Jangan berani berkata 'berhemah is irrelevant'. Bukankah itu cara yang diajar Nabi? Adakah anda berkata Nabi itu tidak relevan? Baginda mengharungi segala tentangan yang ada tetapi kini, baginda amatlah disegani dan dihormati.

Saya bukannya mahukan Raja Petra menjadi nabi baru. Saya cuma minta Raja Petra ikut sunnah nabi cara berdakwah. Jangan hanya mahu menang sorak dan menjadi kontroversial!

Sebab itu saya tidak respek Raja Petra. Artikelnya penuh tohmahan dan emosi.

Tidak ubah seperti blog-blog saya dahulu. Benar tetapi penuh kontroversi.

Blog hangat Jeghui.

Raja Petra grilled

Quote me of you like, I once taunted the Malaysia-today website's slogan "Your source of independent news" with strings of vibes on MSN as almost all of the articles are anti-government and provocative, causing disharmony in the country in that process.

How can one declares itself as independent and neutral when its nature is actually bias? (i.e. anti-government).

Before you (mostly negative thinkers) speculate, I am not one of those Government's cybertroopers backing up every single thing that has been said by the current rulers but I wish to re-iterate that I will make my own opinions based on facts that I have obtained and will try to be as neutral, as fair as possible. But as I said earlier, how can Malaysia-today be neutral and independent?

I'm quite confident that some articles are very constructive and thought-provoking but mostly the articles give a direct hit to certain people and resulting them seemed very interesting to read. Some might have valid grounds while others, are fuelled with political and hate agenda. Mythologies and fitnahs.

'Is Jeanne (Abdullah) a Malay?'

Look at that title of an article I saw on Malaysia-today.net a few days after Pak Lah married a woman called Jeanne Abdullah. I am not sure the exact title but the moment I saw that, I couldn't stop thinking how people make controversial articles just to be famous. Petty issues! But common people are so interested to know. But for me, it's a bloody waste of time and not constructive. Of course, I wasn't interested to read the article. I exited the site and sighed "When will Malaysia-today change?" Later, the title of the article was adjusted into 'Is Jeanne a Malay? Yes, says UMNO Kepala Batas'.

Raja Petra is the webmaster of Malaysia-today.net and his controversial articles are said to be derived from many sources, not of his own opinions only. Maybe he was used by certain people to direct their agendas but I believe he is a wise guy despite people calling him a 'psycho with good command of English'.

About the allegation being put to him, I think it was blown out of proportion. He did not insult the King and Islam if you read his article carefully. From what I know, he is from the Royal blood himself, is he not? But he does provoke some people in his articles and that might have pissed them to bits.

Of course he wouldn't know where the comments on his articles were originated from and it was not clear why he was asked about that matter. But he shouldn't accused those people are the so-called Government's cybertroopers because they could be anyone. So, pint-pointing on one group of people clearly shows he is BIAS.

He was again being interrogated about a comment from a poster 'Why fight, we are Malaysians, let us live peacefully and be happy'. Raja Petra was puzzled why he was asked about this 'positive' comment but he actually failed to recognise the real point the policeman was trying to make.

Just like all those negative people, he has failed to do this. He failed to convey his ideas in a peaceful manner. In a correct manner. Constructive, less controversial but still thought-provoking.

Which I call as the correct way of blogging.

So please Syeikh Kickdefella, Raja Petra, there are better ways to enlight the people. Clearly you guys just wanted to be famous being controversial.

Just like Eminem. Just like that pathetic Lindsay Lohan.