Saturday, September 29, 2007

Last Night (Diddy feat Keyshia)

Diddy:]
Last night,
I couldn't even get an answer.
Tried to call,
but my pride wouldn't let me dial.
And I'm sitting here,
with this blank expression.
And the way I feel,
I wanna curl up like a child.

I know you can hear me
I know you can feel me
I can't live without you
God please make me better
I wish I wasn't the way I am

[Keyshia:]
If I told you once, I told you twice,
you can see it in my eyes.
I'm all cried out,
with nothing to say.
You're everything I wanted to be.
If you could only see,
your heart belongs to me.
I love you so much, I'm yearning for your touch.
Come and set me free,
forever yours I'll be,
baby won't you come and take this pain awayyyyy.

[Diddy:]
Last night,
I couldn't even get an answer.
Tried to call,
but my pride wouldn't let me dial.
And I'm sitting here,
with this blank expression.
And the way I feel,
I wanna curl up like a child.

[Keyshia:]
I need you,
and you need me.
This is so plain to see,
and I will never let you go and,
I will always love you so.
I will...
If you could only see,
your heart belongs to me.
I love you so much, I'm yearning for your touch.
Come and set me free,
forever yours I'll be,
baby won't you come and take this pain awayyyyy.

[Diddy:]
Last night,
I couldn't even get an answer.
Tried to call,
but my pride wouldn't let me dial.
And I'm sitting here,
with this blank expression.
And the way I feel,
I wanna curl up like a child.

[Diddy:]
Tell me the words to say,
to make you come back,
and work me like that.
And if it matters I'll rather stay home,
with you I'm never alone.
Don't want to wait till you're gone,
let me be, just don't leave me.

[Diddy:]
Last night,
I couldn't even get an answer.
Tried to call,
but my pride wouldn't let me dial.
And I'm sitting here,
with this blank expression.
And the way I feel,
I wanna curl up like a child.

[Keyshia:]
I need you,
and you need me.
This is so plain to see,
and I will never let you go and,
I will always love you so.
I will...
If you could only see,
your heart belongs to me.
I love you so much, I'm yearning for your touch.
Come and set me free,
forever yours I'll be,
baby won't you come and take my pain awayyyyy.

[Diddy:]
Last night,
I couldn't even get an answer.
Tried to call,
but my pride wouldn't let me dial.
And I'm sitting here,
with this blank expression.
And the way I feel,
I wanna curl up like a child.

[Keyshia:]
I'm so alone I'm soooo lonelyyyyy,

Why don't you pick the phone,
and dial up my number,
and call me a baby,
I'm waiting on you.

Why don't you pick the phone,
and dial up my number,
just call me a baby,
I'm waiting on you.

Sunday, September 16, 2007

I'm sorry, blame it on me.

As life goes on I'm starting to learn more and more about responsibility
And I realize that everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out to apologize for things that
I've done things that haven't occurred yet
and things that they don't want to take responsibility for

I'm sorry for the times that I left you home
I was on the road and you were alone
I'm sorry for the times that I had to go
I'm sorry for the fact that I did not know

That you were sitting home just wishing we
Could go back to when it was just you and me
I'm sorry for the times I would neglect
I'm sorry for the times I disrespect

I'm sorry for the wrong things that I've done
I'm sorry I'm not always there for my sons
I'm sorry for the fact that I'm not aware
That you can't sleep at night when I am not there

Because I'm in the streets like everyday
I'm sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you are the best thing in my world
And how I'm so proud to call you my girl

I understand that there's some problems
And I'm not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show

If I can't apologize for being wrong
Then it's just a shame on me
I'll be the reason for your pain
And you can put the blame on me

You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

I'm sorry for the things that he put you through
And all the times you didn't know what to do
I'm sorry that you had to go and sell those bags
Just trying to stay busy until you heard from dad

When you would rather be home with all your kids
As one big family with love and bliss
And even though pops treated us like kings
He got a second wife and you didn't agree

He got up and left you there all alone
I'm sorry that you had to do it on your own
I'm sorry that I went and added to your grief
I'm sorry that your son was once a thief

I'm sorry that I grew up way to fast
I wish I would of listened and not be so bad
I'm sorry that your life turned out this way
I'm sorry that the feds came and took me away

I understand that there's some problems
And I'm not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show

If I can't apologize for being wrong
Then it's just a shame on me
I’ll be the reason for your pain
And you can put the blame on me

You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

I'm sorry that it took so long to see
But they were dead wrong trying to put it on me
I'm sorry that it took so long to speak
But I was on tour with Gwen Stefani

I'm sorry for the hand that she was dealt
And for the embarrassment that she felt
She's just a little young girl trying to have fun
But daddy should of never let her out that young

I'm sorry for Club Zen getting shut down
I hope they manage better next time around
How was I to know she was underage
In a 21 and older club they say

Why doesn't anybody want to take blame
Verizon backed out disgracing my name
I'm just a singer trying to entertain
Because I love my fans I'll take that blame

Even though the blame's on you
Even though the blame's on you
Even though the blame's on you
I'll take that blame from you

And you can put that blame on me
And you can put that blame on me
You can put that blame on me
You can put that blame on me

And you can put that blame on me

And you can put that blame on me

Friday, September 07, 2007

Make it Markov!

A lot of things are happening lately.

We are moving out to Maybury Gardens (Willesden) from Neasden (Only one station away but the 'Zone 2' label makes a lot of differences). I have to say it's such a wonderful crib I don't mind paying for the small room. Well actually not that really small lah. Kudos Smq and Sam.

I'm on the verge of leaving PNB after being rejected of another year of deferment (I will appeal through a respected figure!). The lads are great but they themselves urge me to seek other avenues.

Arsenal proving me wrong with their recent performances.

Changing the way I'm thinking about Malaysia and its consititution.

Leaving behind family and friends after a 2-month 'break'. Went to Genting, Port Dickson, Sunway Lagoon and even BTN Ulu Sepri resulting the 'rindu padamu' effect. Earliest I will be back to homecountry in August or September 2008.

Being granted a convertible loan as for the first time ever being sponsored overseas.

Happy to hear about the new budget. Effective September 2007, the Government will increase the Cost of Living Allowances (COLA) for students in the United States, United Kingdom and Canada by up to 97%, almost double the current rate. (Budget 2008. However I'm not sure if my case included.)

Pursuing MSc Actuarial Management after a year course of MSc Actuarial Science (I now only need to hand in the Project after passing all the papers but still writing it up is quite a trouble)

Didnt get to resit for exemption purposes for subject CT8 but still raring to do it externally via the Institute. Sacrificed 'holidays' in Malaysia, ended up signing up agreements and do other important stuffs.

Transitting from Pro Evo 5 to Pro Evo 6 (wanna fight come arr!). Beaten Top Player Mode but Kudin suggested I fight with real people.

Vow to work my ass off to obtain as many exemptions for ST and CA subjects and land a job in the UK to pay back 'someone'. I have to wait for the letter of demand after 31st October to know the exact figure.

"Ya Allah, berikanlah hambamu ini kekuatan dan keredhaan hidup di dunia dan akhirat."

Amin.